Saturday, October 10, 2009
One of the more serious decisions of my life
Like a bad relationship I think it's about time we ended it before you cause me any more pain and suffering.
I've told myself, so many times over, that I should stay strong, that if I would hang on a little more, things will take a turn for the better.
Everytime I see you, I get this terrible internal conflict within me -the devil and the angel bickering constantly. One complaining about how stupid you are and and the other about how I should be patient and continue to stand by you.
I tried, I honestly have. But you just never cease to disappoint me. I keep wanting to give you another chance, but sadly all that hope just stands to be dashed cruelly by you.
I pray to myself, everytime before I see you, that it is going to be a pleasant experience this time. But you are unpredictable as always, I can never know what's on your mind.
I am sick and tired of your ficklemindedness and your tendency to drift away and digress into something completely unrelated. I hate how you never seem to follow through with what you started, always leaving me confused and frustrated.
It is true that we have been through so many ups and downs together. I will always remember the happy times that we had. All things that go up must go down eventually, perhaps this is just the right time to end it before it gets any worse.
I am not saying this is entirely your fault, of course. You still have all the qualities that I liked about you, and there is definitely no doubt that all the other people still love you. I hope it's not too cliche to say "it's not you, it's me" because it is actually true.
I am going to miss you, I definitely will. Forgive me for deciding to stop seeing you. Please know that I will always love you and I wish you all the best in your future, Heroes...
(Why is Nikki/Tracy standing in the middle?)
Posted at 10:17 pm by
CheaN
