I had an awesome dream last night. I was at a Halloween party and everyone was dressed up. I had this amazing mask on, the fancy mardi gras kinda mask, super elaborate with feathers and sequins and whatnot. My hair was swept up into this fantastic Victorian-style do, and I had a totally fabulous gown on me and I felt like a million bucks.
And then of course my alarm had to go off at 6:05 am and I am back to the cruel sad reality where I DON'T have a freaking costume. All I have is a pair of devil ears and a red cape. Boringggg.
Well anyway I came across this website with some interesting Halloween costume ideas. Kinda dorky, and borderline lame even, but interesting nonetheless. These are some of my favorites:
Carry a quarter and a hammer. What are you? A Quarter-pounder.
Wrap yourself in wrapping paper with a tag: "From: God, To: Women". What are you? God's gift to women.
Attach suger-cubes (or candy) all over yourself. What are you? Sugar-Daddy or Sugar-Momma.
Put a pot on your head. What are you? A pot head.
Wear all white. Attach (or paint)
yellow circle to your stomach. You are an egg. Add horns and a
pitchfork and you are a deviled egg.
Get an old box. Cut a hole for your head. Attach book, tissue box, and lamp. What are you? A "One Night Stand!"
Dress nicely with a fake noose around your neck. What are you? Well hung.
Put a sign that says "Go Ceilings!!!!" on your shirt. What are you? A Ceiling Fan! Cheer to help the effect.
Wear all white. Attach old cups, milk cartons etc to you. What are you? White trash.
For those times you don't want to go: the invisible man.
Friday night. The clock barely struck midnight. I am in my jammies, in my full-on nerd mode and spending quality time with my laptop. I made a decision to stay in tonight, skipping a Halloween party somewhere and another karaoke outing somewhere else and locking myself in the room not even bothering with a conversation with the roomies. 黄昏 is playing on iTunes currently with a bunch of other Chinese songs in the playlist. Tonight I just want to stay home and be boring, I told Andrew.
I thought of blogging about a serious emo post, about life love and all that crap. And then I realized I really don't have much to talk about. The highlight of the day was that I had my first ever California Burrito. Carne asada + cheese + potatoes + sour cream + guacamole wrapped in tortilla. IMHO you can never go wrong with guacamole and sour cream. Me loves me fake Mexican food =)
Today my coworker Jason asked if I'm the type of person who'd publish details of my love life on the web. "Like would you announce all over facebook if you broke up with your bf or had a fight or something?" Hell no I said. I am quite a private person I guess. One of my principles in life is that thou shalt never share your miseries with the public, because a) nobody actually cares, b) you are only making yourself appear vulnerable and weak, c) too many cooks spoil the broth. Honestly do you REALLY trust other people's opinions about important things in your life? d) there is an inherent trait in all human beings i.e. the tendency to gossip and spread rumors. So keep your shit to yourself - there is a good reason for best friends and diaries and vibrators hahaha.
I had a fucking brilliant idea for Halloween. I bought this red riding hood costume on eBay about a month ago. It was a gothic version of the conventional red riding hood (all the white elements being replaced by black and the costume comes with faux leather gloves (read: hawt!)) and it was such a great deal too. So my fucking brilliant idea was this: LITTLE DEAD RIDING HOOD!!!! I would paint my face to a deathly pale white, contrasting with black lips and super goth looking eye makeup. I would still tie my hair into two ponytails, but I'll use some hair gel or whatever to tousle it up, maybe stick a twig or two in it. Then I would slash up my red hood at the bottom and maybe have some fake blood on my clothes. Ha no happy ending for you red riding hood! It would have been A. W. E. S. O. M. E. But guess what had to happen?? It's been one freaking month and I still haven't received it. Probably got lost in the mail? And it's just my luck that the eBay seller (costumeworld09 fucking jackass jerk prick loser%*$%^!@%) refuses to take responsibility for this. What a fucking jerk. I tried going to Halloween stores trying to find that gothic red riding hood costume but I haven't seen any! I suppose I could get a boring ol red riding hood and just dress it up a little, but I'd look at the price tag and take a deep breath and walk away... =( So anyways as illustrated by the sad face, I am actually pretty sad. Halloween is in a week's time and I don't have a costume! No I don't want to be a cat or a policewoman or a French maid or a witch or a pirate. Ideas anyone??
Anyways. It's already tomorrow. Guess I should go to bed? I think I'm actually going to be productive tomorrow. Get a haircut, do laundry, start writing my personal statement, then maybe go to the bookstore and get a good new book. Oh and I would like to finish watching The Future of Food on Hulu. Okay good night world.
Pandan Ice Cream! (Actually pandan + dark chocolate, which sounds sooooooo goooooood). Maybe someday I'll actually fork out that $5.69 to try it.
And also: Naga, which apparently means Sweet indian curry with fresh young coconut flavor. So it's pretty much like frozen curry? Weird.
Also available in form of chocolate is Naga (sweet indian curry powder + coconut flakes + deep milk chocolate) and Black Pearl bar (Wasabi + Ginger + Black sesame seeds + dark chocolate). Like, ewwww?!
Matcha Bar (Japanese Matcha green tea + deep milk chocolate) Goji Bar (Tibetan Goji berries + pink Himalayan salt + deep milk chocolate)
Oaxaca Bar (Oaxacan guajillo y pasilla chillies + Tazmanian bittersweet chocolate) Mo's Bacon Bar (Applewood smoked bacon + Alderwood smoked salt + Deep milk chocolate). Actually this might just be the most disturbing combination yet. Seriously bacon with chocolate?! This is far too radical even for this chocoholic. What's next I wonder? Smoked salmon??
Like a bad relationship I think it's about time we ended it before you cause me any more pain and suffering.
I've told myself, so many times over, that I should stay strong, that if I would hang on a little more, things will take a turn for the better.
Everytime I see you, I get this terrible internal conflict within me -the devil and the angel bickering constantly. One complaining about how stupid you are and and the other about how I should be patient and continue to stand by you.
I tried, I honestly have. But you just never cease to disappoint me. I keep wanting to give you another chance, but sadly all that hope just stands to be dashed cruelly by you.
I pray to myself, everytime before I see you, that it is going to be a pleasant experience this time. But you are unpredictable as always, I can never know what's on your mind.
I am sick and tired of your ficklemindedness and your tendency to drift away and digress into something completely unrelated. I hate how you never seem to follow through with what you started, always leaving me confused and frustrated.
It is true that we have been through so many ups and downs together. I will always remember the happy times that we had. All things that go up must go down eventually, perhaps this is just the right time to end it before it gets any worse.
I am not saying this is entirely your fault, of course. You still have all the qualities that I liked about you, and there is definitely no doubt that all the other people still love you. I hope it's not too cliche to say "it's not you, it's me" because it is actually true.
I am going to miss you, I definitely will. Forgive me for deciding to stop seeing you. Please know that I will always love you and I wish you all the best in your future, Heroes...
I'm just gonna post some dessert pictures. Because it makes me happy. And hopefully it will make you jealous at the same time. Ha.
Firstly: Extraordinary Desserts, both Hillcrest and Little Italy
Devonshire Napoleon
Warm chocolate bread pudding with chocolate chip ice cream
The Viennese White Chocolate Cheesecake hidden between two walnut cake and moistened with Tahitian vanilla. This classic Austrian torte is topped with seasonal berries and edged with roasted nuts.
The Viking Chocolate crème brûlée and milk chocolate whipped cream are hidden between chocolate cake layers and smothered with fresh caramel. Crushed chocolate almond pralines surround this dark and dense torte.
While you are there, be sure to try out their "Birthday Tea". Black tea with a warm out of the oven cookie taste with strong caramel and vanilla notes. Absolutely delicious.
Second: Heaven Sent Desserts, North Park
Love love love! Red Velvet Cake with cream cheese frosting
Some fancy-name fruit tart that I don't remember. Yummy, nonetheless.
Life is so hard being an adult. Especially if you're me, who's rather prone to making bad decisions in life. Today is not a good day. I went to Candy Depot to get $5 worth of chocolate peanut butter malt balls, chocolate-covered cookie dough, chocolate-covered brownie bites, and yogurt-covered raisins - all of which I finished in one sitting. And then I had four chocolate-covered strawberries. And then I drizzled (more like soaked) a banana with some Hershey's chocolate syrup... After all that chocolate I was still depressed. It sure didn't help that it is my "crying time of the month", if you know what I mean.
Rejection is a bitch. I finally know how you boys felt back in high school. Ugh. Doesn't it make you feel like killing the rejector? Send an army of zombies to their house? Record the whole thing and post it on youtube? No? Okay maybe it's just me. In my 22 years, I've never fully apprehended the meaning of "no" until recently. ¡Es terrible! Never have I felt so put down, so unappreciated, so worthless.. Its like my self-esteem just took a plunge into the deep sea and never came back. I started questioning my self-worth, my intelligence, my capabilities, my goals.. Have all you people been lying to me all my life?! Why is this growing up thing suddenly so hard?! Did I get stupid all of a sudden? Was everything I did not good enough? What more do you expect of me?! Arrrggghhh!!! *rips a Barbie doll's head off* **plop**
I have reasons to believe that I am not cut out to work hard. I am by no means a workaholic. I enjoy being pampered, and being waited upon. I like to do things on my own pace; I absolutely hate the idea of reporting to someone and working on someone else's schedule. If it makes me sound like a total spoilt brat, so be it. Snigger all you want of the girl who thinks she's a princess and expects money to fall onto her lap. I do, however, know for a fact that somewhere out there there is something that is meant for me to do. But of course, being stuck in this rut does not really help in the discovery of Chea Ean's Great Destiny.
What I have done can definitely be deemed suicidal. In an economically difficult time like this, with a more-than-inconvenient disadvantage of my status, with not-exactly-the-most-impressive qualifications, I have decided to venture out into the world of job seeking - along with 3,000,000 others in this country. I needed to peel out of the little bubble that I had been trapped in, and "never settle for the path of least resistance". (Yeah Lee Ann Womack's I Hope You Dance is currently the theme song of my life). So wish me luck, dear all, wish me all the strength in the world so that I will not crumble at every little rejection, and say a little prayer for all the cocoa beans that have died for me in this arduous journey.
The owner of this blog is Chea Ean - and I will give you a big big hug if you can say my name right.
I have hair too flat for my protruding forehead, front teeth too wide for my mouth, ears too flappy for my face, feet too big for an Asian girl, and probably a mind too fickle for my own good.
I am the girl by the window, and I might just be the most incoherent person you will ever meet. But yes, I have friends; if that's what you're wondering.
This is the time right now in San Diego. Try not to keep asking me "What's the time now over there?" everytime you see me online cos it gets annoying at times
